Once you say them, they're not yours anymore.
I find that when talking with B I can't not tell him how much I adore, treasure, cherish, etc. him. It's like I'm compelled to tell him...not to get a certain response, mind you. I just don't want him to ever forget.
Having said that, I'm thinking I might need to reel it in; turn my edit button back on. Not censor myself or anything, just be more selective in what I say out loud.
I don't want to make him uncomfortable or feel obligated to respond in any certain way. Also, it makes me extremely vulnerable and that's always scary.
I'll get it right one day. I'll find the balance.
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