Then, we have my family.
My mother was in a car accident in late June and she suffered injuries that a) they cannot do anything about (broken ribs, collarbone, fractured pelvis) and b) just take longer to heal. She's frustrated. She's depressed. She's angry. And on top of all that - I think she's losing her 72 year old mind.
She also seems to have this disconnect between when people CAN help her and when she WANTS them to help her. This has caused all sorts of issues with my siblings because they have jobs and lives and families and cannot drop everything to rush to her side (or the grocery store, or the bank, or the hair dresser, or, or, or...).
As a result, my brother isn't even speaking to her because she finally broke him down. He just cannot take her negativity and anger anymore. I don't blame him; however, she's 72 fucking years old and has almost run her body into the ground. Why can't he just suck it up? That's his MOTHER.
My sister is getting to the same point. Of course, in my opinion, she does it for show. I'm not saying she doesn't care. I'm just saying it's not her sole motivation.
I went to visit for a few days a couple weeks ago. I was so saddened by my mother's condition. I was glad to be there and help her out, but I feel this overwhelming guilt that I'm not there to help her all the time. I've asked her to move here, but she uses the excuse of "I can't find a job making what I make and I won't be able to live on my retirement/ss/whatever."
While there we went to the attorney's office for my mother to update her will. Without going into detail let's just say that a) it's her estate and she can do what she damn well pleases and b) her decisions have added stress about what's going to happen when she dies.
I can only do what I can do from here. I can only do what I can do from here. I can only do what I can do from here. And that has to be enough - for BOTH of us.
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